Mary Kate. Please switch back the violin to a regular violin. There is no left/ ride hand to violin playing. If there is any advantage to either hand, it is to being left handed. Fine muscle motion is required in the left hand, while right hand uses larger muscle dexterity, so the advantage is to play the violin in a normal way. Another reason for switching back is that if you play in an orchestra, you’ll have to play with the violin on the left shoulder. Most teachers and online lessons will show you how to play that way too. Switching out the opposite way is so uncommon it is a novelty and doesn’t help make anything easier in the long run.
Now as to motivation. Violin playing is hard. If it were easy, everyone would do it. It takes time, commitment and consistent effort. It teaches you discipline and rewards you with joy. But not one ounce of that joy comes unearned, so set your mind to working for it. Anything worth having is worth working hard for. It sounds like you had a lot of obstacles in life that forced you to put down learning the violin temporarily. Accept that this was not your fault either time. Congratulate yourself for still having the will to stand up and try again. There is no success without losses. Get in there and just start. Think short term goals. Think about todays practice, not tomorrows hope to play Paganini. Commit to 2 minutes a day. Open the case. Tighten the bow. Begin.
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