Don’t feel lonely. I played 4 years as a child/teenager. Didn’t pick it up until I had an 11 year old daughter that was interested. At that time I took my first private lessons for 5 years. 3 months after I reached my goal of playing my violin teachers orchestra, which now has 60 violins, I got sick. It has been 10 years since that, and I am finally seriously back at it.