Trying to please others and their goals for me to compete and perform was a big reason why I stopped playing at 15 even though I was 1st chair in the 2nd violins in a decent school orchestra. I didn’t realize that I wasn’t enjoying it because I was trying to fulfill others’ goals for me, not my own. I didn’t like the choices of music that we played, either, much of the time. Now I can choose my goals and music and enjoy the process. I believe I can be better than I once was in some ways that honor my heart and tastes.