I am struggling with this also, just on the other side of things, being that reading sheet music is making me insane. I am trying so hard, and I know that it will come in time. It is the biggest challenge/obstacle I am trying to overcome at this point, because my ear/brain just wants to take over and find the notes and play them by ear, because it comes instantaneously to me. I realize however that this is self deprecating, and that I need to learn and understand sheet music is order to grow as a musician. The struggle is very real on both sides of that fence.